Catch Up

A lot happened the past four weeks. So here, in brief, is a list of what I've been up to:

I graduated. That's still hard to believe.


I also moved back home with all my college stuff and realized I finally have to unpack this stuff (doesn't mean the unpacking has happened...).

I went to the beach on a vacation with my family and best friends.


I started working for Eco Partners for the fourth summer in a row (so lucky Elizabeth lets me keep coming back!)

I saw my older college friends for a weekend on the lake (and learned some things never change).


I've also done a lot of reading. And not studying for the GRE.

I've prepared for my move to Florida (1 month, 23 days!) by looking up packing lists and starting a new tab on Scribbling in the Margins for my Disney blog.

I'm nervous about graduating, but so so excited for my Disney adventure in August. I'm not 100% sure how I want to record everything that happens on my Disney College Program (weekly blogs? Monthly videos? More videos/blogs or less?) so let me know what you want to see in the comments :)


Thoughts on Turning 22


I'm turning 22 today.

Just writing it is weird.

In high school, I was always in the middle of my friends' birthdays; most of them aged up in April, a month after me. But in college, I'm one of the last ones, making my 22nd birthday today less of a novelty.

But leading up to 22 has felt different than my earlier birthdays. For one, it's the first year I haven't counted down the days until March 30. It's also the first year I forgot my birthday was coming up. At the Royal Ontario Museum last week, the ticket counter woman asked for my age and for a second, I wasn't sure. I thought I'd already turned 22.

Maybe that's because I've felt myself growing up a lot the past seven months as my school career comes to an end (for now). Suddenly I'm moving miles away from home, gradually becoming financially independent, leaving all my best friends behind, and dealing with a big empty question mark filling the next 10 years.

I hate not knowing, but I hate growing up even more. And 22 is the age where I'm left with no choice but to grow up.

My parents aren't kicking me to the curb and I'm moving to Disney World, of all places. I depend a ton on Mom and Dad. But I just came back from my first vacation I planned and paid for all on my own. As I drove the eight hours home exactly a week ago I realized I hadn't even asked permission to take this trip. I just told my parents I was going, and did it.

Come May, I'll have to slowly start establishing myself. Gradually, yes, but this is the time when I have to learn how to take care of myself by myself. I'm not saying I'll be alone; I'll always have my family. But I am going to need to lessen my dependence on them and strengthen my dependence on myself.

College prepared me for adulthood. I should be ready for this. I learned how to make friends I didn't grow up with and I'm no longer afraid to call people on the phone. I've been rejected enough times to understand working for what I want is going to take extra time. And I know I'm equipped with the knowledge and independence I need to tackle the world by myself.

Now I just need to believe it.


P.S. Since it is my birthday, I want to end this on a happier note. As I wrote this post a few days ago with my cat by my head and Winnie-the-Pooh mug in hand, I knew that my 22 years have been amazing. I should have no reason to suspect that the next 22 won't be as wonderful. Growing up isn't all bad. It just feels all bad when you're in your twenties and have no idea what to expect. One day, I'm sure, I'll understand that.

A Life Update and Changes

Hello friends. Long time no write.

I didn't make a decision not to blog this semester. I even had posts planned out following my last one in August. Yet I quickly realized I needed a break, and so I silently took it.

I'm a senior now and unsure of what's coming next. I just finished my senior seminar, writing a roughly 100-paged collection of essays about my grandparents' farm in four months. And I just wanted to step away from the blog for a while and reevaluate.

A book blog has been fun, but it's not something I can keep up with in the long term. I love books, but I don't love to write about books. It's time to move on to something different.

So what's changing? At first, not much. The blog's name isn't going to change and for now the design is remaining until I figure out what I want it to look like. But the content will be different.

Short explanation: I'm writing what I want, when I want.

Long explanation: I'm going to use this space as more of a writing hub/exploratory place. A place for me to write about graduating, growing up, changing, and adventuring while also sharing snippets of my creative writing happening in the background. I don't know where I'll be in five months, but I'm sure I'll want to write about it. And so I will. Everything will be more personal, now. More about me (for those of you who have been with me since the beginning, this is Living as a Tiger 2.0.).

So coming up this month are my trips to London and Paris (!!) and any other thing that comes to me along the way.

I hope you'll stick around with me. I think we're going to have a lot of fun.